I can't decide.

I don't know whether to hate you or love you. I wish you'd just step out and tell me what you want to, or what i need to know. I don't even know whether I should be feeling like this.
Am I just another friend? Am i special? Sometimes I wish i knew exactly how YOU felt so i could act accordingly. I don't want to miss someone who really doesn't care, or either cares too much to let me know.

And YOU..! I love you. All the time. Today and yesterday been good for me. :) I can now be a wife, right? I can cook, clean, and bake.. and take care of babies. You, i mean. ;) And it was fun. I finally got you up my bed without you breaking any limbs. But you mangkuk la. Can jump off and hurt your foot some more. And i SOOOOO can't believe we weigh the same! I'm so jealous. You're taller! But oh I got more muscle right? :P Or better bones!

You, you. I see you sooooo seldomly. But when i get to talk to you, i realise how much i miss you and how i'd love to spend some good time with you. Nagas! Better be sooner than later! And we got so so much to talk about. GGRRRRR. I'm so nervous about calling Daphne. But i miss them Emmikins and Joy Joy! Oh and thanks for the awesome pasta recipe.

YOUS! I miss yous. Valentine's Day! :D Loads of catching up to do. We hardly got time nowadays, but I love Yous!! Must cook for Yous sometime.

You, thanks for being there to talk to me everyday, and missing me when i'm gone. :) You're such an awesome Aussie! My tube..! Thank you too for the Neiman Marcus cookies recipe!

And You, stop worrying about the future you can't change. London is just a place of opportunity for us all. And.. that one girl is never ever worth all the pain you seem to be feeling. There is SOMEONE out there for you, whenever in your life she appears. Time is NOT running out in any way whatsoever. So don't be so paranoid okay? See you there!

I love You all in different ways. You're all big parts of my life right now, and i need all of you, okay? :)

*Hug-e-s, and kiss-e-s*