Just some sort of rambling, disorganised mess.

I finished reading Special Topics In Calamity Physics today. I loved the book! It was a very long-winded one, I must say, but brilliant.

Marisha Pessl, you are awesome, and fucking bright!
To anyone who has a few days to spare and nothing important to do, you can either borrow this book off me or get it cheap at the Big Bookstore. It's GOOD. Keeps you thinking. And you learn a LOT.
(Fortunately, I read Simon Cox's A to Z of Ancient Egypt, The Tempest, Heart of Darkness, and Things Fall Apart before reading this book. She makes references like a hungry cow chewing cud!)

The book did get me thinking.

Life as it is, relatively boring. I've never had random make-outs, or planned to disappear suddenly and take on an alias somewhere else, marry, and then disappear again. I've never met my own Andreo Verduga, showing up hot, but bloody on my doorstep. My dad never woke me up in the morning shouting a new word for me to learn (in fact this morning he walked in saying 'Nasi Lemak Time' like once every other week).

What's life without some thrill?

My father never dated June Bugs, my mum didn't commit suicide because her husband was cheating on her, noone ever said kissing me was like kissing TUNA, or sardines. My arms are not too white and skinny, I have siblings, and a darling to really love and talk to, and my teachers don't walk into my house destroying my dead mum's butterfly collection because my dad dumped them.

Maybe life ISN'T too bad without fictional action after all.





God, I need to stop being so fickle!

Just called McDonald's to change my order, or add to it, rather.

There IS one thing I can't change my mind about though,
how so very hot and tingly YOU make me feel. (:

Ahh, yes, the big Eighteen.

It's amazing how weird and confusing it feels to finally be.. 18.

I hated the thought of it in the morning!
I am NOT, I am NOT, I am NOT a child anymore.
Yay?

WHAAAAAAA. I LIKED being a baby!
I could have my way!

Now I have to be more independent, less gossipy, actually INTELLIGENT, polite, caring, responsible, etc etc.. BORING STUFF!

And my Sunday began HORRIBLY.

New pianist.

Didn't know HOW to play for mass or WITH the rest of the choir. And he was oblivious to the sharps on F and C written on his psalter copy.

SIGH.

But things got WAY better after going shopping!! Dorothy Perkins at 20% off has a MIRACULOUS curing effect. We spent close to one-grand at One Utama in the afternoon.


WOOT!

Then at dinner time, at Nando's... I had like, this awesome chicken dinner which I was craving for ages.
After that, Adeline gives me my birthday present.

I was crying in front of Xixili.

And I couldn't stop thinking how good it is to receive when you've been giving all this time!

I got home and Alithea gave me her present too. Dad gave me some cash.

Earlier in the evening, Hitakshi actually came over to give me my presents!

Also, earlier at Sunday School, Alex gave me a dozen Krispy Kremes.. :D yay!


























I LOVE YOU PEOPLE SO MUCH, I'D HAVE DIED WITHOUT YOU, I SWEAR!

Oh and Carolyn, I don't care what who says. Your handmade cards are the best!! (:
All in all it was a good day. Most of the people I love remembered my birthday!

Thank you for all those who made my day and week before this extra special.

(I'm such a material girl.)

25th June. Etched.

Yes, in my heart forever.

I woke up, burning.

I wanted to see her really badly!

But I had to wait till after lunch, so I decided to occupy myself with weird things.

She came early!

She brought all her stuff, her clothes and whatnot.

So 'cited!

We had lunch.

And then we got to know each other. Better, anyway.

It was like a fantasy come true.

She's awesome.

In more than one way.

And I had first-hand experience.

We managed to pass 4 hours away in a blink of an eye.

An extremely pleasant experience!

Then came panic time.

But she took care of me quietly and patiently.

She did forget to tell me that you can't touch wax after you spray it on, though.

Oh well, all is forgiven. :D

This post is dedicated to my personal hair-stylist. I think she's gorgeous!

More posts on Prom soon!

THANK YOU!

Hitakshi
Adila
Ashikin
Carolyn
Zhi Hao
Daryl
Belinda
Idzrul
Shazlinaah
Janice
Michelle

Thank you SO much for being with me for lunch today. Especially Janice and Michelle, who went early to get the Bubba Gump people to do that birthday cheer thingamajig thing! It was fun.
Oh and those who have pictures, PLEASE send them to me soon! Michelle, Zhi Hao and Dila, you guys got some right? Either blog them, FB them, or email them to me. THANKS!

Transformers : The Revenge of the Fallen was SO GOOD. It was just SO good!
The Micayla-Sam love story is awesome. Optimus Prime.. predictably resurrected! Bumblebee so EMOOOOOO! And Simmons.. 1/36th Arab, it seems. Hilarious shit.

GO WATCH IT, PLEBS! :D

Great day. Even the weird hair-perming incident!

I liked my dress. (:

Do you feel the excitement? Do you?

Well I sure freaking do!

Tomorrow, shopping with Belinda and Michelle and Baby for prom dress, shoes, clutches, accessories, etc.
(I know, last minute shit-ness. But it'll be SO fun!)

Wednesday,
birthday celebrations with my closest friends and hopefully, Transformers!
Lunch should be good. And LOUD. :D

Thursday,
A Red Carpet Affair.
A-levels Annual Ball 2009!
That should be FUN!

And best part.. I have such a HOT date for all these events.
And my closest girlfriends for some. :)

WOOT!

Really??

Just so you know,

I want to kiss you too.

I probably did back then, as well.

Silly.

Adrenaline, sweat, aching hands.

Yesterday I realised I like being in the centre of action.

Drama, unrest, tension.

I couldn't stay away from the Iranian protest outside the UN building.
I kept calling Navid, Aunt Linda, speculating about what needed to be done.

I even said I wanted to be a journalist.
(Reconsidering that though, I don't think I'm daring enough.)

C4 was beginning in half an hour, and still, stubborn ol' Amelia decides to run to the fence to see whether the riot was breaking up or not.

25 minutes to C4 and Amelia runs to the front of the KLSMC to see what was happening,
and was confronted by angry Iranians, some crying from the tear gas.

I ran back to the bottom of WH, with the Iranians at my heels, shouting protests,
"Where's my vote?, Where's my vote?"
(They weren't shouting at me, I just happened to be smack right in the middle of them all.)

20 minutes to C4, and my friends manage to get me into the lift to finally go up to the 4th floor.
I'm dripping with sweat and my hands are shaking from the adrenaline rush.
(The very AWESOME, adrenaline rush.)

Then I decide to go to the toilet...
and when I open the washroom door and run into the toilet, I realise the washroom is filled with tear-gas.

Too late. Already in there and.. answering nature's call.

I run out, and I see the window open. Goddamn idiots.

Eyes and nose burning, I wash my face hastily and run out.

4.1, where's 4.1? I'm afraid the gas has affected my eye-sight. No, no, just blink it away. You can't fail C4, Amelia!

I walk into a very warm room.
(A-level exams are well known to be held in very cold air-conditioned rooms.)

Goodness, Bryan says they've turned off the air-con units to prevent the tear gas from being ventilated into the whole building!

So why is it that I still want to go see how the Iranians are faring?
Why do I still want to make sure that noone got hurt?
Why was I tempted to actually join their protest when Amirhossein asked me to?


To answer myself,
It's in my nature.




Oh and I have aching hands because I had a 3 hour Law exam a few hours back. Non-stop writing! But it was okie-bedokie. (:

Danger; heart zone.

It's dangerous when you want someone that doesn't want you as much.
You leave hurting because you know how much you have put into the whole thing,
but aren't getting back as much.

It really sucks when you expect just ONE thing,
and that one person can't, or won't give it to you.
You feel kind of short-changed.

But is this love?
Is that person the one you want most and are willing to take anything for?

Oh, who knows.

What a mean life I have!

Well it's not really mean. I guess I'm just not very lucky these few days..

Sunday was a freakish day! I kept crying and crying and crying. My eyes were so swollen when I woke up on Monday! It seemed like everyone was just angry with me even though I did not do anything. Mum was upset with me because of something trivial, for giving away a box of OLD encyclopedias that 'weren't my own', even though I've been reading them for years now. I gave them to little kids that I adore, and I got scolded for that. My older sister misunderstood a joke I meant, and she was upset with me the whole day as well!

I tried apologising to mum, and she walked away.
When I apologised to Ally, with dad around, we had this whole emo talk and I cried for about half an hour non-stop!

Sacrifices.

Humility.

Tears.

That's my family, in 3 words!

But then in the evening, before dinner with the Tai Chi people, Carolyn and Adelyn came over to play basketball and badminton! I had not been so happy in such a long time. Running, working up a sweat, laughing like a nut, and hugging my baby.. We met this 2-year old boy which was also at the playground and he was so adorable. He held my hand..! And just hanging out at the park. There was this freedom to it.. sweet.

Today, though, was an entirely different matter. For one, I went to get some food at HP. Walking back to KPD E, I hit my head REALLY hard on a corner jutting out of the walls. OMG. OUCHNESS, FRICKING. I was dizzy for a bit.
Then, at the library, I was just struck by the futility of my studying. And I felt like giving up really badly. Ask Pon, seriously. I was so upset. And from the sound of his voice he was trying so hard to keep my spirits up. Thanks, boy! I'm sorry you missed your Dad today!

But Janice and Kua are such a funny combination. Always make me laugh. Unfailingly. :)

Life HAS dished out an awful lot for me, hasn't it?

Just one more week of exams. And I will be FREE! From torture, knowledge, and sobriety.
WOOTS!

Forgive me, for I have sinned.

Yes,
talk about Gluttony!

This morning my dad and I had nasi lemak at the Shell in D.U. I had a chocolate bun as well.
Breakfast.

Lasagne, 2 servings. Tea party, mangosteens and rambutans at Carolyn's house! Her mum invited us over for lunch. So Kenneth and I went over. Adelyn was there!

Dinner.. parents' 27th anniversary! Kanna Curry House dinner, then chocolate cake and durian for dessert.

Somebody send me to hell for all the calories I've consumed!

But Econs 5 was kind of fun.. Thanks, Hugh Bredenkamp. :D