He deserves this!

Weirdddd.

Today started off on a weird note. Dad randomly woke us up and asked if we wanted to go swimming. I jumped (slowly and sleepily) at the idea, of course. So i went. I swam less than i usually did because i had a movie date with Tats, Dexter and Carolyn at 10.

Knowing my dilly-dallying family though, we left home at 10.20. Mummy was being all dramatic and 'i don't want to go'. I think she may have been jealous i was going out with some guys! Anyway, i was kind of grouchy then. But after seeing them I felt way better. Dex is HEEEELAAARRIIOOUUSSS, I tell you! I couldn't hold a sour face for more than 20 seconds after he started talking. :) Tats was showing off his sexy tanned shoulders as usual. And Carolyn! I'm sooooooo sorry i yelled at you on the phone, but you know why. I love you k?

Anyway, since the whole time my parents and sister were around in MV, we had to run around and hide because.. (i had my reasons). Looking back at it, it was funny. Tats and Dex wanted to go say hi, but.. that would've been like suicide, i think! We had lunch at Nando's, i think i've gone mad with that franchise, absolutely love it and cannot get sick of it. The movie : Underworld 3. My ratings? Bad, bad, bad. Too dramatic. But the heroine was gorgeous, dimples and all. :D

Tats dropped us to the Bangsar LRT station. When i reached Taman Bahagia he texted to ask if i was home safe. SO SWEET RIGHT? Any of you single girls looking for a nice, Japanese boy? Tatsuki is single. ;) Comment here if you're interested. He's bound to read..! And as i said before, he's got nice, sexy tanned shoulders. And going to become a doctor someday. What more could we ask for? Only height, actually. ;)

Well anyway, after getting home everything was okay. Usual dinner and we went for a walk. But when i got home i received news that college only starts on the 10th of February. That means i get to see Baby only a whole week later. OMG. And i got a lousy, lousy 18 over 30 for my LNAT MCQs. And now i'm really really upset! I don't know if that's good enough to get into like, Bristol and UCL, but i can only hope now! Sigh.

Yes. A really odd day.

I so need hugs!

Just to remind you.

That you have been the sunshine of my life.

You're one thing that has gotten me this far in life, in college, in everything you're there with me for. :P

I absolutely adore you. You so cute! Last night, you were just so irresistible. Flower and all.. ;)

And when you're gone, i sometimes try to keep you out of my mind to stop myself from crying, missing you. You're THAT big a part of me. Imagine not having a leg!

ANDDDDD, I am SOOOO darn looking forward to seeing you again tomorrow. Wear a shirt. :D

Life is utterly random.

BABY IS BACK!
WOOTTTTSSS!

:D

I'm happyyyyy!

Just got back from dinner with Carolyn and her friends and her cousins. Ming Zen's surprise thingamajig. It wasn't bad at all, but i've never felt comfortable being around all that many people without knowing half of them.. so yeah. It was okay. Carolyn's friends were so nice. Most of them tried to make small chat with me so i didn't feel left out or whatever.

Oh and lately i've been talking to some very nice college-mates. xD It's funny how only after one year and when they're just about to leave, you decide to make an initiative to get to know them. No regrets. :) I've been listening to Tatsuki sing.. and OMG OMG OMG he sounds so awesome! I'm not exaggerating at all. He's so good.
If he lets me i'll post him up here sometime! :D

Lately been eating so much, obviously due to CNY... BUT i've been good too. Been for some exercise everyday now. Grandaunt is here for a week or so, i think. Oh and i got a new pair of Voirs.. which i love. VERY high-heeled but i love them, they're so gorgeous and chinese-y, and i'll picture them here soon. :D

Now sleepy!

Blossoms.

Mahajaya sent daddy a bouquet/basket for CNY. My itchy fingers had to tear it apart to make little corsages and my own arrangement of flowers..

Here you go! :)

(My favourite bunch)

I've got more pictures of more flowers, but these were the most impressive by far.

I'll miss what i hated.

The past few weeks have been extremely exam-oriented for me. Well not just me, i guess. A whole lot of us A-levels people have been that way. Super focused on exams ;) and studying so much..

even though it's Chinese New Year today!

Not that i enjoy it, really, but.. everyone else does (I prefer Christmas). When i got to college today, Dennis, Tzern, Fu Xuan and Lun were gambling. Silly, silly boys, but it was funny watching them! Everyone but this guy i don't know lost money. Lucky Pon didn't start. Smack him! Even Najwa got dragged into it. Dear, dear.

This morning we woke up to play badminton.. but we woke up too late, so we ended up playing outside our house. One shuttlecock fell into the pond, one flew to the top of the roof. :D My bad! After that, we went for mass, which was mostly in mandarin.. That was tough. But the chinese choir is just so awesome! They sound fantastic!

After mass, we came home for tea offering. :) Then to grandma's house for some more food and tea offering as well. After that, i went to college. I was late but they didn't miss me! They were too busy gambling. xD

I went to Nagas for lunch.. THAT was so awesome. Good South Indian food, and GREAT company. Thank you, Twinkles. :)

Then back to college. More study. And by that time my gay model Tatsuki was there already. He was styling Dexter's hair!! Honestly, Dex looked pretty Japanese too. BUT.. he might have become suicidal if i said that, so i shut up and asked him Econs instead. Send me some picts, Tats! :D

Econs 4 was pretty okay. :) I'm glad it wasn't bad at all. After that i was so happy i went to hug everyone that mattered. Pon, Pia, Janice, Michelle, Tzern, I WILL SO MISS STUDYING WITH YOU GUYS! Really. You guys have made the last few weeks as great as they could've been! And Pon, if you ever read this, You don't need to thank me for waiting for you to go down earlier, you've been a great buddy and you deserve it!

I miss my baby so so much. It feels horrid not having baby around. I can only hope i'll be allowed out on Wednesday night! I feel SOOO left out of stuff. I bet you feel the same though. Just remember i miss you much and i rather be there with you than here. Anytime.

Tomorrow my niece and nephew will be leaving for Au. Gotta leave home at like, 6.45 am. Good Lord! But it's CNY, so i will be nice and family-ey. xD

And then lunch with Poh-Poh and everyone.

Hmm.. sounds like a pretty okay CNY to me!
I feel like i've got loads more to blab out here, but for now it's just

I LOVE YOU PEOPLE AND I WILL MISS YOU,

Tats, we gotta go out sometime,

and Happy Holidays, lovers!

Tim Hawkins' Things You Don't Say To Your Wife.

Today, change has come to our world.

OMG.

IT'S SO AWESOME THAT BARACK OBAMA IS NOW THE AMERICAN PRESIDENT.

I teared this morning thinking about how much hope he has given us.

Even before being inaugurated, he's changed the way people looked at life, and the World.

God bless you, Barack. God be with you.

And oh, you make an awesome face to be put on a t-shirt. I just LOVE mine! People in MV and college and EVERYWHERE were looking, and THEY KNOW they WANTED it! Sorry, people. ;)

Today i went to the movies with Carolyn, Alexander and Tzern. BEDTIME STORIES IS THE HILARIOUS-EST movie EVER! Tzern said it was interesting. I just KNOW he liked it. And Alexander, he loved it! Laughing just as much as i did. Awesome. NO regrets, however much they wanted to watch Lycans. :P And i had Carl's Jr. for lunch. Muahahaha. I love bacon, i tell ya! ;) Now everyone looks like Bugsy to me!

It was just a good day for me, except for the fact that i realise Unit 4 for econs is NOT so great after all.

Though the taxi ride was fun. I was holding on to my seat like, WOOT! Crazy driver nut. And yeah, i was literally rubbing shoulders with the fabulous. HAHA!

Yay me, Obama, and my movie buddies. Love you all :D

A nervous wreck.

I woke up later than usual today, and i feel odd.

I think it's because i have an exam later today, and i haven't studied. And it's a literature exam.

And there has been so so much on my mind! Since i got the offer from LSE, i realised how much life has to change. So many things i have to sacrifice, blogging definitely being one of them. I can't take up my spanish lessons this semester and that is very very depressing. I love my spanish classes and i love my lecturers and my classmates! Now i'm held back one semester.

I have to come online less, and that of course, sucks too. :(

But anyway, let's just get on with life. Gotta move on and have a good time tomorrow! :)

It's a good day, to let you in and see..

Everyone around me seems to be having problems, and all that. Romance problems, family problems, financial problems, and me? Only exams to really worry about.

Thank the Good Lord. Alleluia has never meant so much!

Econs 1 and 3 were okay.. So was Math C1 and C3. Lit, i can't say the same, but it wasn't so bad i guess. The Poetry section should help me NOT fail. Now only Units 2 and 4 for Lit, Stats and Econs 4, and then it's break time. I am SO looking forward to that, but I want Wednesday to come first! Movie with Pon :D and Baby of course.

Baby has been such a wonderful person. I couldn't thank God more! Always there for me, before and after my exams. There to have lunch with, and help calm me down just by a smile. :) Love my baby. Let's go to the stairs!

And Pon! So cute la. He DOES need a girlfriend, I must agree. Been my loyal study mate for about a week or so now, and he's fun. And funny! He's so PMS-ey sometimes, but no problem i guess. He's nice enough to be bitchy sometimes ;) Today we were just talking and remembering the first time i talked to him in college. It's funny how we ended up in the same classes.

Kua and Janice have definitely made my week brighter too. :)

And hearing about how Mattie's phones got smashed and he has to spend so much to get new ones, i feel so lucky that my phones work fine. Hearing about Dila's problems, and Ili's.. I'm glad my love life is great. Hearing about Ashikin and Kenny's problems, I'm glad I'm not in their shoes. THIS, THOUGH, MEANS THAT I AM READY TO HELP EVERYONE AND ANYONE OUT. I am NOT gloating, cuz i love these people and i don't like them being upset. In any ways.

Well, gotta go soon. The Nanny is starting soon :) Lit papers next monday and tuesday. Wish me luck, loves!

Oh i really don't give a damn.

Nothing will stop me from loving You.

No matter what people say, how they stare, how they get annoyed or uneasy,

YOU'RE always more important than anything i'll ever know.

Some people don't know how it feels to be so in love.

Some people probably will never know.

I'm glad I do, and i'm glad i know with You.

I love you too :) and i'm glad i make you smile.

Oh dear, my brains stopped working again!

Yes. They did approximately 22 minutes ago.. after the practice LNAT test! Dear Lord. I've been so busy and messed up lately. Studying, exams, LNAT (the real one is tomorrow at 9 am), church, people.. My exams are really taking a toll on me. I feel like no matter how much i study, I just can't stuff any more things into my little brain anymore! But i feel horrible and i panic so much when i don't study, or when i don't know the answer to a question. Dear, i'm delirious, aren't i?

I want my baby. Baby's the only thing that is keeping me sane right now. AWFULLY DISTRACTING, I must say, but i love my Baby. I love Baby, so so so much. I don't want to fight. I like it when we're happy and loving. So near yet so far! Seeing you in college is like an unwinding activity on it's own. YAY! Don't care if we're sickening. xD

Went for 3 masses this weekend. And boy was it.. weird. Our own mass was normal. Then i was with Carolyn at mass and we were having issues too. But at Sunday School things were normal again :D and everything was cool. Sunday evening, Cecilia..! She was late for something and she's SO hot-tempered. She turned around to yell at us once. OMG! Crazy woman. Scary shit!

Right now i am just very confused and tired. I haven't blogged in 4 days. Haven't read my usual blogs in days as well and i feel so deprived. LOL!

But just to inform you guys i'm still alive, and loving you all. :)

Besos*

It's back to the grind, love, the grind.

College started 2 days ago. Goodness, it was like a mini hell going back to a very packed and human-polluted college! Before the holidays everything was so quiet and private and fun! Now, the little kids fresh out of SPM and bright-eyed high-school graduates are everywhere, infesting the previously peaceful HELP UC. I sure hope we weren't such an annoyance a year ago. xD We probably were, but that don't matter. What does is NOW!

Oh but getting to see Baby everyday is really awesome! :D So fun. I really don't give a damn if we sicken people out, just look at something else if you can't stand lovebirds. You're probably deprived anyway if you find PDAs disturbing. I always smile at other couples. :)

Been in college everyday, studying with Pon and Kua. Enlightening, i must say. Carolyn is fun fun. She teman me everywhere if she can. :D I got kaki now! Seen Ashikin and Dila everyday too! Just missing Hitakshi. Let's call her now..

Nothing much else except for exams coming. And that's shitting me!

Anywhere but here.

Today I came home by LRT as usual.. and the blind old man was there. I helped him into the train again, and when we got in a Caucasian man gave up his seat for the blind man. The guy had to then stand. At Universiti station, the Iranian man sitting next to him (was pretty cute) and he helped the blind man get into the lift.

Not one other Malaysian lifted a finger (OR A BUTT, FOR THAT MATTER) for their fellow handicapped Malaysian.

And that's why I don't want to live here, not forever anyway.

Which reminds me, kudos to Tatsuki who never fails to help the handicapped people at KL Sentral and stuff all the time. From the name, you should know he's not Malaysian. Japanese, in fact. See what I mean?

Sigh.

Anyway, I don't know why I'm all emotional about this today. My brain's topsy turvy from C1, C3, and Econs right now. Lunch with Baby, Ashikin, Dila, Pon and Kua was fun though. :) Can't wait to hear Kua speak in Mandarin. xD

Thanks for the Bueno-moment, Tiongkie!! :D I love you la.

I like things how they are, were, no changes please.

I don't like how the past few days have whizzed by. No, not one bit.. Christmas ended just as I felt it there, and the New Year's came by me unprepared. I'm actually afraid of this year leaping into existence so suddenly. Like a foreboding, Ms. C would say, and this very instant I am actually scared.

Feels like life will end as suddenly as the year began.

Or maybe it's just today. Things have been happening very awkwardly for me. Last night I got yelled at for texting and missing a signboard leading to a restaurant, even though i felt it was not my fault at all. That shook me up and put me on my toes. This morning Her Royal Highness did not make it for mass (and without any notice) and put me on even tighter strings. Rushing here and there, and my knees were literally weak singing with no background music. Then when i got home.. more yelling. No investigation as to who took the missing set of keys, everyone got a shelling anyway. Exams begin this Friday. Yes, my RM 200 per paper fricking exams are bloody starting. And i'm not ready one bit.

And right now, I can't sleep, I can't stay awake, I feel like i'm falling.

I've got this odd feeling You don't feel the same about me anymore. Is it paranoia? A week ago I was sure you'd love me forever, even if we moved on. And now, I catch you looking away, I see you stare at someone else. Is this what I imagine? What I want? No. I need you. I want you to hold me and tell me I'm the only one you want. It's not too much to ask..

Is this your way of telling Amelia that she cannot control everything, Lord? Then help her learn before she breaks down. She's scared. She's fucking scared. (Writing this, my pulse is way faster than usual. I'm not lying.)

I think I need Fedac. Valium?

Two Thousand and Nine.

1st January 2009, I slept away. It was awesome. :) I needed the sleep because on the 31st December 2008, I was funking life like there was no tomorrow! (Apparently there was, and it's here, so ignore that, kinda. :D)



Went for mass this morning and i got to see Joy Joy and Emmikins! That was the highlight of my day, besides the awesome lunch AllyChe cooked. Carbonara, mash, and blueberry cheesecake! Besides that I was just sleeping. I went for a swim about 2 hours ago and that was good. 12 laps. But too slow!



Yesterday was awesome though. :)



I got up in the morning, showered, and OFF we went to Sunway Lagoon! Paid through our noses to get in, but it was all good. Carolyn, Adeline and Adelyn make awesome company, especially when Adeline and I are such scaredy cats. Carolyn likes coming to theme-parks with me it seems, because i'm such a chicken but she gets me on the rides ANYWAY, darn. I got a nice tan. Not enough of a tan, but it's a tan, so i'm happy! :D Bikinis are easier to get tanned in, lol! Went on a few crazy rides but they were seriously fun. Not traumatising or anything. Glad it was a small group, everyone did what Amelia wanted to do :D I loved the wave pool best. ;)

We had lunch at Pancake House International! Same place we were at with my school girlfriends last NYE! So awesome. Coincidental. But the food is still pretty good, so i'm not complaining. Left SP at around 4.15, and got home at 5. Mum picked us up from KJLRT.

Got home, slept a little while.. then off to Lai-Yee's house party. Had some food and went to visit Li Ann's house! Rushed home, then to church for midnight mass. Adeline and I were yawning the whole way. SO tiring and hot... and mass was as usual. But the fireworks this year were pretty! 5 boxes! So pretty.

Then after the countdown something special happened, and it made my countdown worth the sore neck. Love you, Twinx!

I miss my Spanish teachers, suddenly.

Tonight i'll be out for Noreen's 18th party. It was actually yesterday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NOREEN ANN! Love you loads :)

If you people need to know anything else, leave a comment. I have a feeling this post was scatterbrained, since i finished it on 2 different days. :D

*hugs, kisses*