sometimes you wonder if it's worth it
missing them
when they probably don't think about you
until they need you
or your help
or some information.

you can't help it.
:(

20 sen.

This image is probably extremely familiar at first sight.
Yes, you're correct - the Malaysian 20 cent coin.
And up till today, it was largely insignificant to me. I usually left anything less than RM1 worth of change at restaurants for a service tip.

That was till TODAY.

Love and I had lunch at Delicious, Bangsar Village this afternoon.
(Spicy crabmeat linguine, shoestring fries and homemade aioli, and a Chunky Apple cupcake with Butterscotch frosting.)
Absolutely satisfying! The bill came up to RM 46.80, and so we forked out RM 47 and handed it to the waitress.
The restaurant was understaffed at the time so Love and I walked out, leaving the RM0.20 change for the waitress to keep.

*Love insert parking card into autopay machine.*
*RM 3.00 parking charge.*
*Love takes out RM 2 from wallet.*
*I take out RM 0.30 from my wallet.*
*Love takes out RM 0.20 from wallet worth of coins.*
*No more coins.*
*Run to car to check.*
*We dig out RM 0.30 worth of coins from the car.*
(You do the math, we did earlier like crazy.)

You got it right.. we searched and searched and found ourselves short of RM 0.20 for parking.
Damn.
If we had just WAITED for our change we wouldn't have had to pay for our parking with an RM 50 note.

The world just HAS it's way of kicking your ass and making it seem funny!

"...I just need you now."

It really sucks being alone sometimes, especially when you're so used to being with friends or family or making new acquaintances.
Then suddenly after the end of the term you find yourself stuck at home watching tv, all alone.
Your best friends from high-school are hundreds of miles away, for good reason.
Your best friends from college are just.. hiding. Or gone, as well.
Your best friends from Uni are.. sick of you, maybe. You just haven't seen them.
And tomorrow your other half is going back to 'look for her roots'.
Your parents are busy, too busy to take you winter-clothes shopping.
Your sisters are either out dating or studying.
You have no brothers.

You're tired. You've done all the work you can - teaching, and making Mum's album. Facebook has done nothing but exhaust you further with boredom and a lack of excitement. You want to go out and everywhere but there are too many limits and problems, and noone to go with. You've got things to worry about - and the loneliness makes it far worse because you have to deal with it alone.

What does a girl gotta do around here to get some love?

kissing you still sends tingles down my spine.
and makes my heart drop, yes.

i can't wait to be with you!

Yes, people get upset when they don't get what they want.

And worse still when things don't go according to plan.

Sigh.

I can't believe I am having this conversation.
(THIS conversation entails discussing whether men get turned on by
grandmother underwear
or not).
It was Janice's idea!

Moving on-
I am waiting for my sweet, yummy baby to bring the pretzels.
Or my baby to bring the sweet, yummy pretzels.
:D

Talk about indecisive!
I can't even decide whether to go rock-climbing next week.
It's too expensive,
I'm too inexperienced,
I don't have the time,
or I most probably wouldn't be allowed to anyway.

But I'm excited about this weekend.
I have a few things to do..
Not sure what they are but I'm sure I'll be busy.

As for today?
I have been BORED to tears!
I don't know what else there is to do..
Hopefully roller-blading later will bring a change of scene.
(Gosh, I think roller-derbies are kinky though).



Turrah!

A S H I K I N .

Two little crazy girls in the picture
grew up together.

I know, you told me not to cry.
But it's hard when you've been an important part of my life
for the last EIGHT years.
That's half a lifetime, almost,
and a lifetime filled with laughter and tears,
food and friendship,
knowledge and intellect,
boys and bitches,
and everything under the sun!

We grew up together, and part of us have rubbed off on each other.
Your sister and mum are like family to me too.
We share mostly the same friends and thoughts and experiences.
We'll always have the HELP debates and Add-Math tuition classes,
being MOMOs and DODOs in school,
Lit Nites and dancing and acting and crazy makeup.

Even today, after ages of not seeing you..
We had a solid conversation about nothing in particular for an hour!

And that's what I love most about us -
we're F R I E N D S.
Always there when I need you, and when I don't.
We've got memories and always making new ones.
We'll continue growing up together even though the distance may set us apart!

Love you and miss you always, Ashikin Bt. Redzuan Yee.
You'll always be my best friend from high-school,
PROMISE.


Rainbow love and honey kisses.