30th December, 2008. Fabulous!

The morning was so fun. Left the house with Mum and Adeline.. to drop me at college and Adeline at school to get her results!

Studied for a while then Carolyn, Joce and Jerms came to college! :D Then it was TAXI-time! Went to ** because Carolyn's buddies asked her out. WEIRD, didn't quite like it, but being with Carolyn was just so so awesome. ;) Took pictures with her and stuff and Joce and Chuah too, but nothing beats Carolyn. Even if I only got to eat nuggets and fries till like 3pm, and paid through my ears, eyes AND nose to get back!

Oh and while i was 'there' Adeline texted me to tell me she got 6As and 1B! I was so happy :) Happy for her! Who cares about straight As anymore? It don't matter, every geek can get it. But she's awesome la! Congratulations, sister! :D

Then i came home! Mattie called for a while. :) We just talked about silly stuff and he got the picture! Glad he liked it. Then i had a good nap.. YES. Nice!

Then at Tai-chi i was happy. Daddy said Adeline and I could go to Sunway Lagoon tomorrow! And he was so so nice and sweet tonight. :) Make me very happy to have parents like mine. I love them.

Now having an awesome chat with my girlfriends from highschool. Love 'em ;) Just missing Hitakshi, that busy bee.

Be back again soon!
*besos y abrazos*

An emotion shake.

Right now i'm just feeling so much! And i felt like just saying that. :D

I'm very much in love.

I'm sad that I don't get to spend all the time i want with Baby, but every little counts.

I look forward for the next time i get to!

I love how you love me, looking at me, being with me...

I really like how I make you hot for me. ;)

I love you, baby.

Oh, happy happy!

It's been GREAT being able to finally spend time with baby :) Baby was being a bit odd at first, i felt like something was between us or something, or at least on baby's mind.

But after a while i guess it just passed. SOOOO FUN being with baby. SO silly! SO lame also. ;) But makes me smile...and baby very nice to huggie huggie.

It makes me wonder sometimes, why one person can be so special to another. Only that one person can make one person smile, or only one person can seem to be that adorable to the other. Why does the heart, (or rather, pituitary gland) react that way?

Doesn't really matter to me i guess. I'm just glad i got to see my darling. :D

Bukit Tinggi (i spent 26th and 27th of December there with family) was okay i guess. Not bad, but not unforgettable either... it was nothing fascinating. I missed being home a whole lot! xD We travelled to faraway lands to eat expensive stuff. Not bad i suppose, but i'd have preferred French cuisine. I'm SO anti-asian, i tell you! Or rather, Western-biased. Christmas Eve was just AWESOME. :) I got to hug and kiss so many people that mattered. I can't wait for the New Year's Eve partyyy! Oh and thank you people for the presents.. especially Carolyn who got me a fabulous bikini. xD Thanks to Jerms as well for picking it.

Just got home today from being with Noreen, Bernice, Stef, Carolyn and Adeline at Pyramid. That was fun although we didn't get to watch a movie. Though i do think we bonded better talking and eating. :) I missed them SOOO much! Thanks Bernice for the present!

Not much i can remember now really.. Just sorry to Mattie for not being able to talk to you much lately. We'll talk soon! :)

*Un abrazo*

I know I can't live without you, can't smile without you.

Baby,

Over the past few days i've been worried nuts about you. How you feel, what you're doing, who you're with. And you never seem to know, you never ever let me know before I give in to my weaknesses and have to ask.

Sometimes i wish you knew me better.

I don't know if you're hiding from me on purpose. I surely hope not, but I know it's something you do.
And i don't want to hurt from that..it's You. I need to learn to accept how You are.

Forgive me if i don't know how.
Right now i just feel pretty left out of your life.

I hate this part right here.

But i love you.

When love and hate collide.

I don't know how dogs lick wounds on their own.

I can't seem to do that with myself.
When i hurt, i have to let everyone know.

But he doesn't seem to see it. He doesn't let it get through.

I hate how he does it.
But i also know i love this guy, idiotic as he is.

Jesus, take the wheel. MINE.

Yes. :) I did that with my own two hands on Paint!

Love you guys!

I'm glad i know now.

Trust me, sometimes it sucks big time not knowing something you've been dying to.

But tonight I found out what i needed to know.

And i want to thank You for telling me, talking to me, letting me know how you feel.

Because i love you. And i need you. I want to know you, we, are okay.

I don't like the distance. Any distance.

And i want you to know i'm here for you.

Always, LIKE IT OR NOT.

Thank you for telling me you love me.

And i loved talking to you now.. every minute. You make me smile.

Oh this sucks.

Knowing that you've got things to say, or things to bug you.. but you can't tell me.

That hurts.

I love you.

Never again.

I promise.

Never.

7 hours of making cupcakes in a day is MORE THAN ENOUGH to last a lifetime.

I'm damned. So tired right now!

And noone to pat me on the head or give me a hug right now.

There are about 150 cupcakes on the table right now.. But i hate them all! I want to BURN them! :'(

Though anyway, it'll be worth it soon enough.
Here's for letting you know how they look!

Want some? :D

BUY YOUR OWN! Me not making any more!!

Wanna let go, but i don't know how.

I used to be the centre of your world.

You never needed to ask if i needed something, you would just get it anyway if you felt it would make me feel the least bit better.

You knew everything about me. And i knew almost everything about you.

Now i have to squeeze time out of you to let you know what's up. And i know NOTHING about you, or what you do, or how you feel.

You used to adore me.

You used to get SO worked up and stressed if i were sick.
Now you don't even know.

Has 4 years really done this? Or is it just us?

Panggil saya Kakak!

For those who don't speak Malay, that means ( Call me Big Sister ). :)

Today me went to Carolyn's house.. and packed up an awesome tuna sandwich. Her grandma saw me and thought i was the new maid! SO funny. I wasn't offended one bit because she did recognise me when i turned. But that just proves I'm better than Carolyn in the kitchen. So much for being the baby. :P

Still don't see the relevance? Maids from Indonesia are called Kakak.

Anyway.. i just had a good time. I finally finished watching WALL-E! Yay for me! And we were eating and chatting and doing lots of random stuff, like cleaning the kitchen area and locking up.
That's what happens when you hang out with AWESOME people. ;) Or maid-less ones, rather..

Special thanks to Alexander Pon for umm.. helping me get a cab and watching me get safely into it. :) Love you, David!

Love you all for reading here anyway. :D

Sat up last night.

I sat up drawing because i was thinking of you.

I don't remember feeling like this for anyone. Anyone else.

Good lord. I think I'm going mad.

Mad in love, they call it.

Won't you please tell me how you feel?

I'm still here, drawing.

What's with me and simple people?

I seem to fall for simple people.

Sweet, funny, not complicated.. people who just want to be loved.

I am NOT complaining. They're all sweet, the people-you-find-next-door kind.. and it makes me want to live the simple life they do too.

So much less busy, so much less people to deal with.. Life is sweet when you treasure the small things. The little things that make them smile, i want to enjoy too.

I will someday, when i marry my own boy-next-door, right?

Who that is i don't know. All i do know is that, i might love the high life, Glamour and lights, but i want to go home to a simple, loving husband who can make awesome pasta... or just a good dinner anyway. ;)
If he can make dessert, that's a plus point. But he's got to be the friendly, dog/animal-loving kind of man.

Oh and girls, you stand a chance too. ;) Amelia isn't sexist!

Oh but ladies and gentlemen, though i write of criteria of a future spouse, it does NOT AT ALL mean i am looking for someone. I was just.. letting my mind wander.

* It melts my heart to see you with Pete. You'll be a great daddy someday. *

*BESOS*

Ooh me butt hurt.

Yeah that's what happens when you don't work out for a long long time and then decide to join your older sister for a walk in TTDI.

A painful butt!

But i don't think i was here to really talk so much about my yes, sexy but almost inexistent butt (Alithea said so). ;)
I just wanted to share my excitement about seeing Ms. Christina at the park and being with my tai-ka-che! She was away last weekend and i SO missed her. She's so fun! :)

And just in case there IS anyone reading this.. do i need a make-over? Ally offered me a free Shiseido makeover which is valid till the end of December. I need feedback, sweethearts! SO unlike me to want stuff on my face, but it's an experience. And it's free. And Amelia NEVER resists free or cheap stuff! :D

Today my girls and I were supposed to go to MV for our lunch out kind of thing. Didn't happen. So i'm hoping it will tomorrow. Cuz i miss them all.. CAROLYN especially! :D

Get well soon, Mattie. :) I think you hit jackpot when you said i 'felt' for you.. Hence the sore throat both me and Adeline are having. We BOTH love you, but i love you more right?

xx Un abrazo y un beso de el mi corazon xx

I have never been THIS embarrassed over fellow Malaysians!

I am talking about the debate I just came home from. Organised by SUHAKAM, UN and in collaboration with CIMB. Stuff about human rights. So yes, i feel very strongly for it.

Engaging, very, but I just figured how anti-Asian i am! I only agreed with Team Malaysia ONCE. And most of the other time i was saying "Ass, Idiot, Ass, Idiot" or *turns to Carolyn and says 'I am so angry!'* while Team MY was speaking. Darn.

But i am mainly embarrassed for their ego and lack of professionalism. I mean, Opposition's First Minister sat scratching his forehead (which was clearly not itchy ) while his Whip was speaking. HECK, even schoolkids don't do that! They did not ever clash the govt's case head on. Just on and on parodying the silliest things and avoiding the clashes with jokes. LAME!

Team World ( Ivan, Erin, Cormack :D ) were awesome. Not once lost their cool ( i think, anyway ) and spoke very clearly. Impressive debating backgrounds of course, and of course, all gorgeous people. ;) They made so much sense! Or maybe it's just my bias towards westerners. Whatever it is, i was truly impressed.

Worst part of it all was that the brilliantest audience i've known were so totally on Team MY's side. SHEESH. Weird, smelly old men trying to sound clever. GOODNESS!

Best part of the night was being in KL, watching the Twin Towers from the Hotel pool...with Carolyn. SO PRETTY! I love the twin towers. Got this obsession for it somehow. And of course, having the German ambassador come approach us and ( don't mind my bragging ) not stop staring at me! xD Come on Carolyn, he SO WAS! Though i hardly understood what he said and i think most Germans are like that. I wonder how they say 'sausages'. :D

Dad seems to think that UN is my destiny.. and i do too. Don't mind the idea one bit because i've always loved helping them out. Got the full attire now anyway. :)

Love you people. I know i'm nuts for the 2nd post today. But come on.. you want to know.

Hasta la vista, chiquitos!

My emotion drawer.

Oh yes. I opened it today. I cleaned my table and it was there, and i could not resist.

The usual stuff. Cards, present jewellery, important documents. Bits and pieces of my past, and a chockful of memories!

And then i realised how much of it i've left behind. There were random cards from Noreen, whom i see once every few weeks for a few minutes. How awesome thinking about THAT made me feel.. you can't imagine. Below zero. We were SO close. And now it's so far away. So much distance. I wonder how she feels anymore.

Then another card from Ilianna, Safwanah and Nadzirah. We were never close, i must admit. But today when i opened the card i wondered (for the umpteenth time) why they bothered giving me that sweet card for my 15th birthday. It's JUST a card, some may say, but after 2 years, cards are NOT JUST CARDS. Realise.

Then more cards I made for my girls. Some i had not given them although i made them in January earlier this year. And there was some kind of comfort knowing that I had made a presence in someone else's emotion drawer. :) I love making cards, and forgive me if i don't remember all that i have made so far, but i did mean each word i wrote on each one.

Then the cutest one i got this year... from Carolyn! She only just made it a few weeks back and it's the only one i ever got with a Winnie the Pooh in it. :) And of course, Hitakshi's. Those had the most words in them, heartfelt and original, and definitely very meaningful. Makes me feel awesomely loved! There's a note from Dila in there too, and none from Ashikin yet.. but only because she don't have the knack for it. I still know she loves me. :D

And of course.. Pictures. I've got some of Emily, Kaeley and Hannah while they were tinier. God i wanted to CRY when i saw them. And pictures of myself singing in church! Old. From Christmases 06 and 07. So weird watching myself grow up!

And yes. Memories of probably, my first love. :) The Snickers wrapper, the KLIA band we exchanged. It's funny thinking how 4 years walked by me so quickly. I don't know how i'll ever let go, but that don't mean i want to.


Yes. That was my emotion drawer. If you ever stop by, ask to look at it. Other items in it includes toys, bra straps, stickers, paper, more letters and cards. It's SO Amelia. :)


Hasta luego, queridos!

Ah, my very first.

Apparently, I have a new blog.

A more public, accessible one. And definitely one created for sweet, sweet revenge. ;)

Cheers!

Let's hope this is as fun as i hope it to be.

Hasta luego!