My emotion drawer.

Oh yes. I opened it today. I cleaned my table and it was there, and i could not resist.

The usual stuff. Cards, present jewellery, important documents. Bits and pieces of my past, and a chockful of memories!

And then i realised how much of it i've left behind. There were random cards from Noreen, whom i see once every few weeks for a few minutes. How awesome thinking about THAT made me feel.. you can't imagine. Below zero. We were SO close. And now it's so far away. So much distance. I wonder how she feels anymore.

Then another card from Ilianna, Safwanah and Nadzirah. We were never close, i must admit. But today when i opened the card i wondered (for the umpteenth time) why they bothered giving me that sweet card for my 15th birthday. It's JUST a card, some may say, but after 2 years, cards are NOT JUST CARDS. Realise.

Then more cards I made for my girls. Some i had not given them although i made them in January earlier this year. And there was some kind of comfort knowing that I had made a presence in someone else's emotion drawer. :) I love making cards, and forgive me if i don't remember all that i have made so far, but i did mean each word i wrote on each one.

Then the cutest one i got this year... from Carolyn! She only just made it a few weeks back and it's the only one i ever got with a Winnie the Pooh in it. :) And of course, Hitakshi's. Those had the most words in them, heartfelt and original, and definitely very meaningful. Makes me feel awesomely loved! There's a note from Dila in there too, and none from Ashikin yet.. but only because she don't have the knack for it. I still know she loves me. :D

And of course.. Pictures. I've got some of Emily, Kaeley and Hannah while they were tinier. God i wanted to CRY when i saw them. And pictures of myself singing in church! Old. From Christmases 06 and 07. So weird watching myself grow up!

And yes. Memories of probably, my first love. :) The Snickers wrapper, the KLIA band we exchanged. It's funny thinking how 4 years walked by me so quickly. I don't know how i'll ever let go, but that don't mean i want to.


Yes. That was my emotion drawer. If you ever stop by, ask to look at it. Other items in it includes toys, bra straps, stickers, paper, more letters and cards. It's SO Amelia. :)


Hasta luego, queridos!