Sunday was a freakish day! I kept crying and crying and crying. My eyes were so swollen when I woke up on Monday! It seemed like everyone was just angry with me even though I did not do anything. Mum was upset with me because of something trivial, for giving away a box of OLD encyclopedias that 'weren't my own', even though I've been reading them for years now. I gave them to little kids that I adore, and I got scolded for that. My older sister misunderstood a joke I meant, and she was upset with me the whole day as well!
I tried apologising to mum, and she walked away.
When I apologised to Ally, with dad around, we had this whole emo talk and I cried for about half an hour non-stop!
Sacrifices.
Humility.
Tears.
That's my family, in 3 words!
But then in the evening, before dinner with the Tai Chi people, Carolyn and Adelyn came over to play basketball and badminton! I had not been so happy in such a long time. Running, working up a sweat, laughing like a nut, and hugging my baby.. We met this 2-year old boy which was also at the playground and he was so adorable. He held my hand..! And just hanging out at the park. There was this freedom to it.. sweet.
Today, though, was an entirely different matter. For one, I went to get some food at HP. Walking back to KPD E, I hit my head REALLY hard on a corner jutting out of the walls. OMG. OUCHNESS, FRICKING. I was dizzy for a bit.
Then, at the library, I was just struck by the futility of my studying. And I felt like giving up really badly. Ask Pon, seriously. I was so upset. And from the sound of his voice he was trying so hard to keep my spirits up. Thanks, boy! I'm sorry you missed your Dad today!
But Janice and Kua are such a funny combination. Always make me laugh. Unfailingly. :)
Life HAS dished out an awful lot for me, hasn't it?
Just one more week of exams. And I will be FREE! From torture, knowledge, and sobriety.
WOOTS!
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