Someone, leave the light on.

And my someone-s are all talking to me right now. In their own ways, they're helping me cope with my breaking heart.

Let me tell you people now, LOVE IS NOT ENOUGH. It may be for about 8 months, but after that you can't have just Love any more. Things will fall apart and hearts will break. And then you'll end up a nervous wreck, crying your heart out because you thought someone recycled your University offer letter.

Carolyn, you know I love You. And I appreciate your trying to come see me tomorrow! I hope you'll be able to make it because you make me happy and you help me smile again. And you've got so much to learn about me, but we'll make do with what we have for now. I can't afford to think about more stuff. You're just about enough. :)

Matt, thank You for being so kind, caring and loving from all the way over there! I know you worry about me, but i promised I wouldn't do something stupid even though i was honest when i said I felt like it. I needed some kind of manifestation for the pain inside. But I'm going swimming instead tomorrow. Okay? Don't worry. Go off with Randal tomorrow. I'll miss you!

Kenny, you're silly. I do NOT use lipsyl of hand lotions and I probably won't for a few years. But talking about things like that and explaining tofu to you helped me to get my mind off you-know-what, and though you did make me cry harder about getting another offer letter earlier, I'm glad that chapter is over. Thanks! Even though you ARE taking forever to reply me!

You're killing me, softly. But I won't die. Not tonight.