OMG, I love you people SOOOO m,uch!

Yes,

to everyone at my Nirwana's lunch today,

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH.

Today was such a fun, emotional lunch, and ALL of you people who mattered most to me in college were there!

The food wasn't all that great, except for the not-so-bitter bittergourd,

but

the company was absolutely wonderful,

thanks to each and every one of you!

TURTLE
MR. SAM
SHAZLINAAH
BELINDA
JANICE
MICHAEL
MICHELLE
MS. JUELLE
ALEX HAMSTER
ALEX PON
CAROLYN TIONG!

It was just good being able to be with all of you at once, talking about random things, getting to know each of you better,

and knowing HOW MUCH I WILL MISS SEEING YOU GUYS EVERY DAY !

I hope to see you guys at the ball, of course..

And my 18th birthday do on the 24th, somewhere in Ampang. KEEP IT FREE!




JUST ANOTHER I LOVE YOU PEOPLE LOADS!

I will miss you all because you've all footprinted my life, my heart, my days. I hope for the best for each and every one of you, and thank you for being there with me throughout the past 1.5 years.
You mean SO much to me!

*love,
amelia*

Random train of thoughts.

I walked home wishing it was you that I caught a sniff off,
not just the remainders of you that I held earlier.

I took the time on the bus to figure some things out,
and to observe a pregnant lady's bracelet.

I missed you,
really badly.

I hated knowing that you were doing something fun,
without me.

I was honestly jealous of all those other idiots who you were with,
when I was alone.

I was so proud that you did so well anyway,
even though I wasn't there to watch you.

I don't know if you catch me staring,
but i love watching you anyway, and sometimes seeing you watch me, though you try to hide it.

Your smile throws me off,
even though it (really) shouldn't.

I can't appear weak,
can I?

But you know me so well already,
I tell you everything, and you just read me like a book.

I love being with you,
even if we're studying and not saying anything, or asking random questions of the economy.

You melt me.

And I love you,
even if that's the hardest thing I'll ever do.

OMG, OMG OMG,

Law, MAAN, TFA, Frankie, Larkin, Faustus, T&T, Unseen.

CRAPLOAD!

The heart can only break so much.

The past few days have been heck of a toughening challenge.

I've been looking forward to so many things.

On my list,

SC's call.

Our girls' Genting trip! With baby, of course.

Classes, as usual. WE NEED IT!

**** telling me he's asked *** to the ball.
And a lot of minor, minor stuff as well.

But I'm not feeling it.

Is it because I didn't expect things to work out?
Or have I been pained so much that I'm numb?
Or is there just no more point in hoping and wanting, because It's all been pre-determined?

God Jesus, help me.
I don't want to stop hoping, wanting, waiting.

Darling, darling.

I don't want to wait until it's too late

To thank you
love you
miss you
and hold you and let you know how much you mean to me
To make you smile
To make you laugh
To make you happy
To give you kisses,
and tickles


I want to let you know

That you're my sweetheart
now
And you'll always have a place in my heart
And you can do anything you set your mind to
You're a wonderful person
You've got a lot of potential
And you're simply lovable
And I don't ever want to stop wanting you


I need to say

That you've got my heart
You've made me smile a thousand times over
You take care of me too well
You know me too well
and i love it
That I love your touch
against my bare skin
and that I love to wear your clothes


You should know

That you make me feel loved
sexy
smart
and that you do it for me
You're a turn on
and a tease
And that your smile is like a rainbow
even when the storm is still there
attempting to steal
you away from me





If i could do anything for you, I would.
I would.
You're my darling,
And there, is the whole world for you
and me.

At first sight.

I'm surprised I didn't write about this yesterday, while the memories were still fresh in my mind, and his image still burned into my head.

Daniel Joo Wei Bessant,
you've taken my heart away!

I mean, this is REALLY love at first sight. I am no longer a skeptic when it comes to things like this. When a boy has lovely brown eyes, brown hair, and symmetrically-artfully-spread freckles, he is GORGEOUS. And when Amelia meets boys like that, she gets hopelessly attached and obsessed!


If he were not five years of age,
I'd probably have hit on him like nuts and gotten his number.

THANKFULLY, HE IS!
That adorable little chunk of sweetness warmed up to me so quickly, almost immediately, I should say! He was so cheeky, and articulate, and confident and friendly! We played cards, and I showed him a mechanical pencil, and he drew his adorable little name for me, on my Frankenstein PYQ paper.

That piece of paper, I'm going to keep, siempre!

And it breaks my heart, kind of, to know that I can never have a baby like that, because of my very very dominant Asian genes. My child will have black hair, black eyes, and freckle-less Chinese skin.

SIGH.

He knew who I was when he saw me at the bus-stop, and he had this confused look on his face, probably not knowing why I had to wait at the side of the road.

I went home smiling.



I know i sound like some kind of paedophile, but it's just that I really, really like children, and even Daniel's teacher said I was so patient with him! Pon and Hamster agree that I am teacher-material. :)

And this child was just absolutely a heart-throb. I pity his future girlfriends, they're going to be SO bummed when he moves on and leaves. Just like I was, knowing that Wednesday tuition is just a back-up if I can't make it on Saturdays. I had so much fun reading to him, and telling him stories, and kissing the top of his head! :)



Oh well, life's like that. It has it's weird ways. I'll say that little angel made ME very happy yesterday!

Cheers, and Daniel, I miss you already!

Uncertainties, unventured, unknown.

I wasn't worried about the 2nd interview until now.

I don't know if I did well enough! Things are so competitive. And I'm honestly, VERY worried.

Well anyway, I woke up feeling WAY crappy. Had a cold and a very itchy nose and a bad headache that lasted me all night, so I skipped Lit for a nap! Carolyn's guest room is awesome, I must say. :D

When I got into the lift at SC though, my itchy nose hid itself. I think adrenaline helps your body fight off infection or something. Tats, am I right? The headache went away with the load of water and nap. :)

I met a whole new bunch of people, actually. People who are better than me in most aspects, I should think. Most of them have other interviews to go to, besides SC.. Unlike me.
But i'll leave things up to God, and to His will.
Hopefully I'll find my way around things.

HUMILITY.

But another round of THANK YOUS to Carolyn, for taking me there and back, and for the emotional support and love, and guest room..
Alex, for introducing me to CNN just when I needed it.
Michelle, Paul, Janice and everyone else who wished me good luck!

Love you guys so much.

Jesus, you rock me with your Spirit!

Oh, how beautiful.

Yes,

It's so beautiful to be in love..

And to see others falling in love too!


Cheerios, and martinis! ;)