It's a good day, to let you in and see..

Everyone around me seems to be having problems, and all that. Romance problems, family problems, financial problems, and me? Only exams to really worry about.

Thank the Good Lord. Alleluia has never meant so much!

Econs 1 and 3 were okay.. So was Math C1 and C3. Lit, i can't say the same, but it wasn't so bad i guess. The Poetry section should help me NOT fail. Now only Units 2 and 4 for Lit, Stats and Econs 4, and then it's break time. I am SO looking forward to that, but I want Wednesday to come first! Movie with Pon :D and Baby of course.

Baby has been such a wonderful person. I couldn't thank God more! Always there for me, before and after my exams. There to have lunch with, and help calm me down just by a smile. :) Love my baby. Let's go to the stairs!

And Pon! So cute la. He DOES need a girlfriend, I must agree. Been my loyal study mate for about a week or so now, and he's fun. And funny! He's so PMS-ey sometimes, but no problem i guess. He's nice enough to be bitchy sometimes ;) Today we were just talking and remembering the first time i talked to him in college. It's funny how we ended up in the same classes.

Kua and Janice have definitely made my week brighter too. :)

And hearing about how Mattie's phones got smashed and he has to spend so much to get new ones, i feel so lucky that my phones work fine. Hearing about Dila's problems, and Ili's.. I'm glad my love life is great. Hearing about Ashikin and Kenny's problems, I'm glad I'm not in their shoes. THIS, THOUGH, MEANS THAT I AM READY TO HELP EVERYONE AND ANYONE OUT. I am NOT gloating, cuz i love these people and i don't like them being upset. In any ways.

Well, gotta go soon. The Nanny is starting soon :) Lit papers next monday and tuesday. Wish me luck, loves!

Oh i really don't give a damn.

Nothing will stop me from loving You.

No matter what people say, how they stare, how they get annoyed or uneasy,

YOU'RE always more important than anything i'll ever know.

Some people don't know how it feels to be so in love.

Some people probably will never know.

I'm glad I do, and i'm glad i know with You.

I love you too :) and i'm glad i make you smile.

Oh dear, my brains stopped working again!

Yes. They did approximately 22 minutes ago.. after the practice LNAT test! Dear Lord. I've been so busy and messed up lately. Studying, exams, LNAT (the real one is tomorrow at 9 am), church, people.. My exams are really taking a toll on me. I feel like no matter how much i study, I just can't stuff any more things into my little brain anymore! But i feel horrible and i panic so much when i don't study, or when i don't know the answer to a question. Dear, i'm delirious, aren't i?

I want my baby. Baby's the only thing that is keeping me sane right now. AWFULLY DISTRACTING, I must say, but i love my Baby. I love Baby, so so so much. I don't want to fight. I like it when we're happy and loving. So near yet so far! Seeing you in college is like an unwinding activity on it's own. YAY! Don't care if we're sickening. xD

Went for 3 masses this weekend. And boy was it.. weird. Our own mass was normal. Then i was with Carolyn at mass and we were having issues too. But at Sunday School things were normal again :D and everything was cool. Sunday evening, Cecilia..! She was late for something and she's SO hot-tempered. She turned around to yell at us once. OMG! Crazy woman. Scary shit!

Right now i am just very confused and tired. I haven't blogged in 4 days. Haven't read my usual blogs in days as well and i feel so deprived. LOL!

But just to inform you guys i'm still alive, and loving you all. :)

Besos*

It's back to the grind, love, the grind.

College started 2 days ago. Goodness, it was like a mini hell going back to a very packed and human-polluted college! Before the holidays everything was so quiet and private and fun! Now, the little kids fresh out of SPM and bright-eyed high-school graduates are everywhere, infesting the previously peaceful HELP UC. I sure hope we weren't such an annoyance a year ago. xD We probably were, but that don't matter. What does is NOW!

Oh but getting to see Baby everyday is really awesome! :D So fun. I really don't give a damn if we sicken people out, just look at something else if you can't stand lovebirds. You're probably deprived anyway if you find PDAs disturbing. I always smile at other couples. :)

Been in college everyday, studying with Pon and Kua. Enlightening, i must say. Carolyn is fun fun. She teman me everywhere if she can. :D I got kaki now! Seen Ashikin and Dila everyday too! Just missing Hitakshi. Let's call her now..

Nothing much else except for exams coming. And that's shitting me!

Anywhere but here.

Today I came home by LRT as usual.. and the blind old man was there. I helped him into the train again, and when we got in a Caucasian man gave up his seat for the blind man. The guy had to then stand. At Universiti station, the Iranian man sitting next to him (was pretty cute) and he helped the blind man get into the lift.

Not one other Malaysian lifted a finger (OR A BUTT, FOR THAT MATTER) for their fellow handicapped Malaysian.

And that's why I don't want to live here, not forever anyway.

Which reminds me, kudos to Tatsuki who never fails to help the handicapped people at KL Sentral and stuff all the time. From the name, you should know he's not Malaysian. Japanese, in fact. See what I mean?

Sigh.

Anyway, I don't know why I'm all emotional about this today. My brain's topsy turvy from C1, C3, and Econs right now. Lunch with Baby, Ashikin, Dila, Pon and Kua was fun though. :) Can't wait to hear Kua speak in Mandarin. xD

Thanks for the Bueno-moment, Tiongkie!! :D I love you la.

I like things how they are, were, no changes please.

I don't like how the past few days have whizzed by. No, not one bit.. Christmas ended just as I felt it there, and the New Year's came by me unprepared. I'm actually afraid of this year leaping into existence so suddenly. Like a foreboding, Ms. C would say, and this very instant I am actually scared.

Feels like life will end as suddenly as the year began.

Or maybe it's just today. Things have been happening very awkwardly for me. Last night I got yelled at for texting and missing a signboard leading to a restaurant, even though i felt it was not my fault at all. That shook me up and put me on my toes. This morning Her Royal Highness did not make it for mass (and without any notice) and put me on even tighter strings. Rushing here and there, and my knees were literally weak singing with no background music. Then when i got home.. more yelling. No investigation as to who took the missing set of keys, everyone got a shelling anyway. Exams begin this Friday. Yes, my RM 200 per paper fricking exams are bloody starting. And i'm not ready one bit.

And right now, I can't sleep, I can't stay awake, I feel like i'm falling.

I've got this odd feeling You don't feel the same about me anymore. Is it paranoia? A week ago I was sure you'd love me forever, even if we moved on. And now, I catch you looking away, I see you stare at someone else. Is this what I imagine? What I want? No. I need you. I want you to hold me and tell me I'm the only one you want. It's not too much to ask..

Is this your way of telling Amelia that she cannot control everything, Lord? Then help her learn before she breaks down. She's scared. She's fucking scared. (Writing this, my pulse is way faster than usual. I'm not lying.)

I think I need Fedac. Valium?

Two Thousand and Nine.

1st January 2009, I slept away. It was awesome. :) I needed the sleep because on the 31st December 2008, I was funking life like there was no tomorrow! (Apparently there was, and it's here, so ignore that, kinda. :D)



Went for mass this morning and i got to see Joy Joy and Emmikins! That was the highlight of my day, besides the awesome lunch AllyChe cooked. Carbonara, mash, and blueberry cheesecake! Besides that I was just sleeping. I went for a swim about 2 hours ago and that was good. 12 laps. But too slow!



Yesterday was awesome though. :)



I got up in the morning, showered, and OFF we went to Sunway Lagoon! Paid through our noses to get in, but it was all good. Carolyn, Adeline and Adelyn make awesome company, especially when Adeline and I are such scaredy cats. Carolyn likes coming to theme-parks with me it seems, because i'm such a chicken but she gets me on the rides ANYWAY, darn. I got a nice tan. Not enough of a tan, but it's a tan, so i'm happy! :D Bikinis are easier to get tanned in, lol! Went on a few crazy rides but they were seriously fun. Not traumatising or anything. Glad it was a small group, everyone did what Amelia wanted to do :D I loved the wave pool best. ;)

We had lunch at Pancake House International! Same place we were at with my school girlfriends last NYE! So awesome. Coincidental. But the food is still pretty good, so i'm not complaining. Left SP at around 4.15, and got home at 5. Mum picked us up from KJLRT.

Got home, slept a little while.. then off to Lai-Yee's house party. Had some food and went to visit Li Ann's house! Rushed home, then to church for midnight mass. Adeline and I were yawning the whole way. SO tiring and hot... and mass was as usual. But the fireworks this year were pretty! 5 boxes! So pretty.

Then after the countdown something special happened, and it made my countdown worth the sore neck. Love you, Twinx!

I miss my Spanish teachers, suddenly.

Tonight i'll be out for Noreen's 18th party. It was actually yesterday, so HAPPY BIRTHDAY, NOREEN ANN! Love you loads :)

If you people need to know anything else, leave a comment. I have a feeling this post was scatterbrained, since i finished it on 2 different days. :D

*hugs, kisses*